Sunday, November 02, 2008

Nobody is PURFEKCT..

I have been journeying for a while now in fitness and the funny thing I have noticed is how cyclic my life can become. Currently, I am going through one of those perfection phases again. They are real big stumbling places for me. Fortunately, I am glad to have kept a journal of writings and now can use them for my own self-therapy. Sad and psychotic? Could be, but sometimes it helps. This entry was something I scribbled down about about a year ago. I changed a few things to make it current to some of my recent goals. The beginning of the entry is me talking to me...then I try to turn my struggle into something that might connect with others. It's fun to talk to yourself...however, I usually do try to answer myself as is proof positive here...that tilts towards scary. Oh well, I hope you can use this little entry if you are struggling with some perfection issues...

It’s funny I have been worrying lately about the outcome of my fitness journey. The standard when, what and why questions. When am I going to see that “six pack”? What is the next hurdle I am going to face? Why can’t I get all the way through ARX yet? Tony says it at the start of almost every workout…”GET YOU MIND RIGHT PEOPLE!” So, I have attempted to try and get my mind right about this “perfection complex” I have seemed to obtain.

After some long nights at work (doing double shifts), prepping for the PA interview and chewing on turkey jerky I came to a not so shocking conclusion: I believe it is within our human nature to compare. “Keeping up with the Joneses” has been around since the beginning of recorded time…even though there were no people with the last name Jones. Comparison can be a great motivator to reach a different level of fitness. Mike and Tami French, for instance, drive me to find great strength and functional fitness. Mark Briggs drives me to want to perform Plyo with a weighted vest someday. Tony Barca makes me want to find that spiritual place in yoga. Those are HEALTHY ways of comparing to each other. Pushing until you cannot push anymore…or, as Phil would say it, “Until I was puking on the side of the road.” Believe it or not, that is a healthy way to push towards a perfection goal. Trying to look like the guys or girls on the cover of the magazine or even like someone here at Team Beachbody…well, sometimes it’s healthy. Most times it can be damaging, physically and mentally. I am guilty just as much as the next person for performing this torture on myself. “I wanna look like him!! I’m busting my tail, where the hell are my ABS?” This fight has been constant in my life even before P90X; I just never got of my ASS to do anything about it. The fact of the matter folks is you are YOU, and you will never be those that you physically compare yourself too. Just as they all are imperfect, you are your own imperfect little self. Live in your imperfections…move towards changing them patiently.

Here are two of my favorite perfection quotes:

“The vision that you glorify in your mind, the ideal you enthrone in your heart. This you will build your life by, and this you will become.” – James Lane Allen

“When you aim for perfection, you discover it’s a moving target.” – Geoffrey F. Fisher

Always remember, you are moving towards a comparable goal with all of us here - To be fit, healthy, vibrant people and to show the world that this healthy life is attainable. Some arrive there faster than others, but the point is to keep moving…crawl if you can. I, or better yet WE (if I may speak for others), WILL be here for you. The cover of P90X says decide, commit, succeed. What the cover doesn’t say is that this team has decided together, commits together, and will succeed together. You all here have come to mean a great deal in my life and you are with me for every run and every workout.